It’s amazing how much of gay … longing is in silence. It’s all staring and internal guessing and glances. That’s why these gay movies that come out move at a glacial pace to straight audiences - they don’t get that for gay people love or any kind of inkling love can happen moves at like a fraction of a speed. Because it’s all done silently. Alone. To grow up gay is to know you’re going to live your life and … a great deal of it will be by yourself
some of you never had your favorite band have a massive announcement and that was a perfume and then a year another massive announcement and it was another perfume and then a year later another massive announcement and it was another perfume and a time when they didnt have a massive announcement and they told you via facebook that a beloved member would be leaving the band and tbh it shows
what she means: the miseducation of cameron post (a drama about lgbt youth enduring conversion therapy, written and directed by Iranian bisexual woman Desiree Akhavan and based on a novel by a lesbian, starring several openly gay actors) won the Sundance grand jury prize 2018 aka the highest award for one of the most major film festivals in the world out of OVER ONE HUNDRED OTHER FILMS but still wasn’t able to get a good distribution deal because society is terrified of female sexuality and also refuses to validate any lgbt story which has the audacity to portray straight/cis people as the irredeemable abusers they are
My brother was diagnosed with depression years before I was, and because of that he started therapy years before I did.
I still remember when I was a young teen and he was playing a Nirvana song and he stopped it at this one line: “I miss the comfort of being sad”
He told me that when you start to get better, there’s a part of you that misses being sad and that if you start feeling that way you have to be extra extra aware and careful because if you indulge the feeling you’ll go down a self-destructive spiral
And even though that was years and years ago, I think about it all the time. Especially when I’m reading discourse on the idea of getting so attached to mental illness as an identity that you don’t want to improve things because you feel safe in it and don’t know who you are without it
I always think of that line “I miss the comfort of being sad” and my brother’s warning
being a fan of a team who does so well and another team who’s not doing good is like being a mom and having a son in MED SCHOOL and another one who can barely finish high school - like how am i supposed to not love the latter HE’S MY SON TOO
The story of my life as New England Patriots and Dallas Stars fan
